Identity Crisis
(BYRON SORELL POV)
"You kissed a girl Byron!"
"I did not!" Sasabunutan ko na 'tong impaktita kong kambal eh! Kanina pa niya pinagdudukdukan na naghalikan kami ni Sheena Yap sa party kahapon ni Wainey dear!
"You can't remember?" Tapos pinakita niya yung cellphone niya... Sushmita sen!!! "Caught on camera, KUYA!"
"Uwaaaaaaaaaaahhh!" And of course, nagtatatakbo ako papunta sa kwarto ng palasyo namin.
At nung ako na lang mag-isa... "So it wasn't a dream. I did kissed her... Eww!" At napapikit ako sa pandidiri, but then I smiled.
The last time felt this way for a girl was when...
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First year high school.
"Byron!"
Naka-smile siya saakin, at ngayon lang ako aaminin na first time kong pupuri ng babae... ang ganda niya kasi. "Samira!"
"Ano naman yang binabasa mo ha?"
"This is called The Badingble! Ang bible naming mga beki!!!"
"Seriously... are you sure you want to be like that? I mean, hindi porket inaasar ka nila madalas at sinasabihan ng bading, doesn't mean na kailangan yun na din ang gawin mo para sa sarili mo."
"Wala namang maniniwala na lalaki ako diba."
"Ako."
"Why Sam, if ever na maging bading ako, hindi mo na ako magiging best friend?"
"You're my best friend because you are Byron!" I smiled at her, because she's really a great girl.
But it makes me sad that I can't fall for her because of two reasons. One, because she's my best friend. And two, because I'm like this. Super identity crisis!
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And Sam was always there for me. The past few years, I realized I'm not in loved with her. I... I just love her for being her.
And it sucks! Kasi tanggap ko na eh! Na ako si Badessa! Ang pinakamalanding prinsesa!!!
Not until yesterday! That day when I met her.
She seemed to not know who she really is. The way she acts, the way she talks, the way she moves! Identity crisis, round two!!!
"I have to make sure! I have to make sure of myself!"
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Kausap ko sa phone ngayon ang isa sa mga priceless kong papa! "Sige na Papa Arji, givenchy mo na saakin yung number ni Sheena." Hindi ako makapag-straight bekimon, hindi naman kasi maiintindihan ni Arji eh.
"Diba binigay na niya sayo yun? Naka-save na yun sa phone mo Byron. Na-check mo na ba?"
"Wis ko knows!!! I'll check it, bye Papa Arjz, muahugs!" Tapos kinalikot ko na agad ang pink cellphone kong napapalibutan ng cute flowerets and blings! Nasaan kaya yung number ni Sheena Yap!
Then I saw it... and it was named _❤Mah Sheena❤_... "My Sheena? Kung sino man ang nag-save nito... malamang ang babaitang iyon!" Matawagan na nga!
*ringback tone...ringggiiingback tone...*
"Infairness, ang nice ng song!"
"Hello, this is Sheena!"
*gulp...*
"Hello?"
Me- (ಠ益ಠ)
"Hello? Byron...?"
*OFF!*
"Sushimita sen! Sushimita sen! Sushimita sen!" Heart failure overload naman! Ang lakas ng kabog ng heartness ko nung marinig ko ang voice ng babaeng iyon! What's wrong with me!!! "Sushmita sen!!! I need Sam!!! I need to talk to her!!!"
*riiiiinnnnngggg... riiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnggggggggg...*
GOSHNESS!!! Now she's calling me??? What should I do!!! Uwaaaaaaaaahhhh!!! "Heller...?"
"Byron." Why the hell am I shaking like this. "You called because we need to talk, right?" Ang straight-to-the-point niyang magsalita! Walang halong keme! "Let's meet."
"Umm..."
"Wait... you think just because I'm a girl, I can't ask you out?"
"Fine... where?"
"I'm here at De Luxe's Cafe. Meet me here." Then she hang up the phone!
And I was left rolling in my bed... "Bratinellang babaitang chorvaloo!!!" But ohmydear!!! My heartbeat!!! Why am I like this! And why is she like that! Kung umasta, daig pa niya ang natitira ko pang pagkalalaki sa katawan!
Anyway, I heard Eli-byu that Sheena is a tomboy! So siguro narinig na rin niya na girl ako... na nagkatawang lalaki. And what's worse, this situation is teaming up a funny and confusing couple! Tomboy+Gay=??? Sino ang lalaki? Sino ang babae? Sobrang gulo talaga!!!
"Alrighty-right, I'll meet her!" At paglabas ko ng kwarto...
"Ayiiiieeeh, kuya By!!! Are you meeting her?"
"Shatap!"
"A date! I knew it." At nang-asar pa ang bruhilda! "Stop acting like you want my gender Byron. I know you very well, and I can feel it too that sooner or later, you'll be back to your old self."
Oo na! Inggit much ako dahil ang kambal ko ang babae, hindi ako! But then, a part of what she said was... true. "Old self your face Raffy! You're sooo~ fugly! Tabi ka nga jan!"
"Hey Byron... wanna bet?"
"Nagmamadali ako, okay!"
"So, you're excited to meet her!" She laughed at me. Ke-kulit talaga ng Raffy na 'to eh! Lakas mantrip, mas maganda naman ako sa kanya! Lalaki nga lang ako. "I bet na pag-uwi mo mamaya, na-realized mo na that you're not meant to be like that."
Then she hugged me, kahit kasi saksakan ng pampam ang babaeng ito, affectionate naman siya. "I miss you kuya. Five years na kitang namimiss." Five years... five years na akong ganito. "Now go! I don't want you to be late on your date."
"It's not a date, nah-uh!"
"Whatever!" Then she lets me go, and we're back to normal. "If I win, tulungan mo ako sa kaibigan mo ha."
"Duh!!!" Then I went outside na... ito kasing si Raffy, nagkaka-crush kay ______ kahapon. Ewan!!! As of now, ang round two muna ng identity crisis ko ang iso-solve ko!
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"I'm boyish, yeah! But I'm not a tomboy." Obvious nga, ang super micromini to the max kasi ng suot niyang skirt! Napapatingin nga lahat ng tao eh. Pero wala lang sa kanya, ang astigin kasi ng look niya, hindi yung haliparot style!
So iniwas ko ang tingin ko, kasi nandidiri ako sa itsura niya... nandidiri nga ba? "I'm sorry for what happened last night."
"You're sorry for kissing me?" Tapos tumawa siya. "What a total jerk!" At umiling-iling pa siya.
"You know what, wag mo nga ibalandra yang legs mo!" At tinapon ko sa kanya yung jacket ko.
Then she laughed again. "Byron, will you give me a reason why you're saying sorry."
"Coz I'm a gay! Isn't it obvious? Di tayo talo teh!"
"A gay wouldn't act like that." Then she took a sip from her coffee. "Ang galing mo nga humalik eh. May pahimas-himas ka pang nalalaman."
"Eww!!!" Then I looked at her lips. Napakagat-labi kasi siya.
"But if you don't really like me Byron, you just have to say so." Napakunot ako bigla. It's not that... definitely not because I don't like her... but because I do... sort of! "Madali naman akong kausap eh." Then she stood up.
"Where are you going?"
"Byron, this isn't the first time I got rejected. So I'm walking out so you won't see me cry, okay?" Tapos tumalikod na siya pero may dinagdag pa siya. "Guys never really liked me because I act like I'm one of them. And no matter how hard I try to prove myself, no one cares to believe! And all this time I thought, you knew what I'm feeling." Napapikit na siya. "Bye!"
At nung paglakad niya, kusa na lang kumilos ang paa ko papalapit sa kanya, at ang kamay ko para pigilan siya. "Wait..."
I know her problem... of all people, I know it very well. "I understand you Sheena. Alam kong mahirap... lalo pa ngayon, na binalik mo yung problema ko."
"What problem?"
Napalunok ako bigla... "Ihhh kase naman..." Nahihiya ako! Shet!!!
"What!?!"
"Pwedeng wag manigaw! Excited much! Nag-iipon pa nga ako ng confidence magsalita!"
Napaka mainitin din ang ulo ng babaeng ito. Pinagtitinginan na tuloy kami ng mga tao! "Ano bang gusto mong sabihin hah?"
"Sorry 'coz I kissed you."
"Psssh!" Nabad-trip yata siya.
"Sorry kasi kabastusan yun! I shouldn't have done that because your a girl!" Mygaly! Hindi ko alam kung paano ie-express ang sarili ko! Bahala na nga! "But... if you want to prove who you really are... then I might help you."
Wala lang siyang reaction kundi isang pang-imbyernang ngiti!
"But you have to help me too! This is your fault! All your fault!" At ako naman ang umi-eksena dito sa cafe. Para akong nababaliw na Sisa na hindi na naman sigurado sa kasarian ko!
"Ano na namang ginawa ko sayo?"
"Ginugulo mo utak at heartness ko!" Tapos nag-rolleyes na lang ako.
"So what do you want? Do you want to try this or not?"
"One week?"
"No! I want this whole semester!"
"Torture naman masyado yun!"
"Take it or nothing at all?" Teka... bakit ang labas eh ako pa ang talagang nangangailangan ng ganito? Masyadong manipulative ang Sheena Yap na ito! "For this whole semester, you'll be my boyfriend, I'll be your girlfriend."
Yes madlang peepz. Nililigawan kasi ako nitong si Sheena... parang ganun. "Then after that?"
"Let's break-up kung sa huli, talagang bading ka at tomboy naman ako."
Okay deal or no deal...
While thinking, may something na tumitibok-tibok sa dibdib ko. Naninikip, parang katulad nung paninikip sa tuwing nakakakita ako ng gwapong lalaki!
But this time, sa babae ako nakatingin. Kay Sheena Yap naninikip ang dibdib ko.
And it's hard to admit that I like saying her name... I like seeing her face... I like what she wants us to do... and I like her...?
"Deal na nga."
So that was a step in solving the round 2 of my identity crisis. Sushmita sen! What will happen kaya?
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End of Special Chapter 5
Chapter 10 | Chapter 11 | Chapter 12 | Chapter 13 | Chapter 14 | Chapter 15
Chapter 16 | Chapter 17 | Chapter 18 | Chapter 19 | Chapter 20 | Chapter 21
Chapter 22 | Chapter 23 | Chapter 24 | Chapter 25 | Chapter 26 | Chapter 27
Chapter 28 | Chapter 29 | Chapter 30 | Chapter 31 | Chapter 32 | Chapter 33
Chapter 34 | Chapter 35 | Chapter 36 | Chapter 37 | Chapter 38 | Chapter 39
Chapter 40 | Chapter 41 | Chapter 42 | Chapter 43 | Chapter 44 | Chapter 45.1
Chapter 45.2 | Chapter 46 | Chapter 47 | Chapter 48 | Chapter 49 | Chapter 50
EPILOGUE | EPILOGUE 2 | Secret Letter by Eli | Samira's Dream | Sunmi's Past
Planning a Confession | Identity Crisis | Babyloves? | Four Nights of... Love?
Chapter 40 | Chapter 41 | Chapter 42 | Chapter 43 | Chapter 44 | Chapter 45.1
Chapter 45.2 | Chapter 46 | Chapter 47 | Chapter 48 | Chapter 49 | Chapter 50
EPILOGUE | EPILOGUE 2 | Secret Letter by Eli | Samira's Dream | Sunmi's Past
Planning a Confession | Identity Crisis | Babyloves? | Four Nights of... Love?
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