“Based on his medical record, motorcycle accident caused him 2 months in comatose state. In spite the fact that he received a brain damage and was cured then. It led also the cause of his bizarre behavior.” paliwanag ng lalakeng neurologist na nasa around 40s habang pinapakita sa amin ang result ng CT scan. Na-contact ko ang mom ni Ardeem na nag-emergency flight agad in 2 days matapos dakpin ang anak nya ng kapulisan. Hindi naman siya kinulong eh, diniretso siya sa psychologist muna and heto kami ngayon ni Zara sa hospital kasama ang family ni Ardeem; his Filipina mom and two handsome little gradeschooler sons. Sayang wala ang Mr.Cooper, I bet how he’s gonna be more handsome as Ardeem.
“Get straight to the point Doctor Brown. Hindi mo naman siguro sasabihin na very serious ang condition of my son.” said Mrs. Cooper, she’s around 40s and elegant manamit. I feel the tension while she’s trying to be optimistic pa rin sa harap ni Doctor Brown. By the way nasa visitor’s lounge kami ni Zara, ang Cooper family ay Doctor’s desk.
“Your son Ardeem is suffering of a Cotard’s Syndrome or Cotard Delusion. It’s a condition na ang patient ay nakaka-experience ng extreme delusion of negation. People suffering from the belief na they are dead, they’ve lost their internal organs or they are immortal.”said Doctor Brown. Kaya pala! Nag-flashback agad sa akin yung mga narinig ko sa sinabi ni Ardeem na paulit-ulit niyang sinabing patay na raw siya. ‘I’m dead! I’m fucking dead!’ Na nawala raw yung brain nya, intestine, heart, liver at kung anu-ano pang internals and externals!
“Oh my God, Ashcot. I can’t believe na may ganito pa lang klase ng psychological disorder. ” Zara whispered.
“As what they stated earlier..” Doctor Brown pointed us. Mrs.Cooper motioned us to come closer to them. Tumayo kami ni Zara at lumapit sa desk.
“As the illness progresses, suferrers will deny their own existence, iisipin nilang nasa hell or heaven sila, or simply believe that others died. Their delusions can be linked to their life: some, who had an accident before the symptoms, may believe that they died in the accident while others, might believe their organs are affected or they simply disappeared.” doctor explained. Exactly! Nagmamatch lahat ng sinasabi ng neurologist! Ardeem said that‘I’m dead! This is hell!’,’Namatay na ako sa motor race!’. And tungkol naman sa organ na nagdisappear, damn! I remember what he said how his d*ck shortened daw and disappeared! Weird!
“At ang cause ng total breakdown ng katawan niya ay dahil wala siyang enough food intake since he was sufferring nihilistic delusion of body parts such as intestines, liver so he loss his apetitite to eat or drink. There were cases na famine ang ikinamamatay ng sufferer kung hindi ito naagapan.” Geez, I blame myself for his prolonged sufferrings! Nakokonsensya ako since pinaabot ko pa ng 4 days bago siya naagapan. 4 days no eat, no drink! Kill me Mrs.Cooper! Masyado na yata akong nag-enjoy kaka-silip lang sa room niya rather that being a concerned citizen.
“What about the treatment? I believe there’s still chance pa naman di ba for my son’s recovery? Come on tell me Doctor Brown.” Mrs.Cooper sounds desperate. Nakakaawa ang tono ng boses nya. Sana nga may chance pang gumaling si Ardeem.
“Anyway, don’t worry Mrs.Cooper, maraming potential pharmacological treatments for Cotard Delusion involving single or combined use of antidepressant and antipsychotic drugs. Most common na ngayon ay ang electroconvulsive therapy or we call it electroshock therapy. Treatment usually takes place several times a week until your son's delusions end, usually leaving him rather confused about his delusional experience.” ngumiti si Dr. Brown na nagpagaan ng tension sa buong sulok ng lab. I sighed in a total relief! I don’t know pero parang ako pa yung mas masaya kaysa kay Mrs.Cooper.
“Thank Heavens Dr. Brown! Thank you!” sobrang saya ni Mrs. Cooper kaya kinamayan niya si Dr.Brown.
“Thank you din sa inyo girls! Kung wala kayo baka namatay na sa gutom ang anak ko sa apartment nya.” she patted our shoulders and smiled to us.
“Wala po yun Mrs.Cooper” said Zara. If I know lang, iniisip na niya na malulungkot siya dahil wala nang masisilipang awesome creature sa window.
“Okay lang po.” sabi ko although guilty ako kasi pinaabot ko pa ng 4 days.
“How’s your head?! Pasensya na talaga sa anak ko huh? I owe you a lot Ashcot.” kinamayan ako ni Mrs.Cooper then nginitian ko na lang siya.
“No, it’s okay Mrs.Cooper.” I faked a smile. Napatakip ng bibig si Zara at itinatago pang natatawa. Holy crap! Sino ba naman kasing magiging okay if pareho kaming nahulog sa bathtub kaya pumutok ang ulo ko at kinailangan pang-iistitch at hindi lang yun pati ang lips ko pumutok din!